". . .We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed. . ." 1 Corinthians 4:8-9
So, there I am cruising down Rivers Avenue during afternoon rush hour on the first week of school being back in session. Okay, just kidding, I wasn't cruising down Rivers. I was doing more of a sloppy salsa basic - you go forward, no I go forward, wait why are you actually backing up to me - with the truck in front of me, but you get the idea.
Back to it, I'm cruising and then the aha moment comes upon me. I'm doing pretty okay today. If you know our story, you know that we've had multiple miscarriages during our relationship and being okay is a pretty big deal. It's not to say that I still don't have moments of sadness or throw a pillow out of frustration at my husband's head. Sorry, babe.
It does mean that embracing victories, even the smallest ones, deserves a satisfactory nod when I look in the mirror. Here are my recent victories. . .
Meal prepped dinner during my lunch hour. Nod.
Ran 25 minutes without stopping. Nod.
Read my Bible an extra half hour last week. Nod.
Didn't cry when I picked out gifts for my cousin's new baby. Nod PLUS hat tilt.
Talked to Jesus and felt at peace. Nod.
Y'know, it's easy to skim over the small victories He lets us have on a daily basis. It's easy to allow our selfish human desires and emotions to blur all of His good in our lives. Too easy. But, we need to ground our hearts and mindsets on Him as our foundation. When we place Him first everything else fades and blurs into oh, that doesn't really matter because He's defeated everything in this world, even death.
It's not easy, y'all. We're human. We become sick. We feel betrayed. We think we're not good enough. Yet, when we focus on Him and force ourselves to push past all of that, we can learn to embrace the small victories (like an empty laundry basket) and the big ones (His salvation). Hint: This is possible even when the world tells us it's not enough. Well, at least that's my prayer for myself and my prayer for you.