Irrational Mom Frustrations
I'm a pretty solid mom, but I'm not perfect. *Plot Twist* Shocker, right?
I neglect the laundry for too long. I tell my husband, "Well, I pushed out Aria so you can do *insert mundane chore*" far too often. I complain about a lot that of nonsense. And, I grow really frustrated over things that I have no control over. What were those frustrations over the last week?
- These big kids (insert brats, yes, I said brats) literally told Aria that no babies were allowed in their fort at the public library. Oh, man, I almost reverted back to my 9-year-old self so I could push them down. I didn't though - I promise.
- This worker at Target didn't wave back to Aria. Yo, seriously, if my child waves at you and you DO see her - wave back. Or you may have a spill on aisle C12 that you need to clean up. Just saying.
- An old man told the waitress that he didn't want to sit near us during lunch because "no offense - she might get too loud." Oh, really? You might get this banana pancake flung at you in the next five seconds. But, no offense.
- Myself. I somehow manage to think of the perfect line or topic for a new blog when I'm driving and at the exact moment that Aria mumbles something to me about "mama baba psshhhiu" and demands an answer from me through the rearview mirror. Then, I sit down, try to scribble it, but it's all lost within a few hours. Bye bye trees and hello frustration.
See, y'all, I'm not perfect and I will never claim to be.
Well, I do quite a few things PERFECTLY, but I am far from perfect. Kidding. Well, mostly kidding. See, I do three things in life really well and I am constantly trying my best to train my mind and heart to stay humble. Yet, in each of those moments I neglected to check myself and see how I could love on them as Christ would. I mean Christ did grow pretty upset when they didn't let the little children approach Him so who knows about that, but that's another blog post, I think.
In those moments of frustration, I need to remind myself of something so important:
Psalm 130:3-5 New International Version (NIV)
3 If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5 I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
We are imperfect and He knows it and He still forgives if we ask Him for it. How wonderful is that, y'all? How wonderful is that.
Now, I know what you're thinking, "Ashley, what are the three things in life that you do perfectly?
- Live my life as an imperfect Christian who constantly relies on God when I am weak, mean and impatient.
- Love my family the best that I can every single day and attempt to give them a home that is as welcoming as possible.
- Bake some pretty mean chocolate chip cookies and grow a garden pretty well when I remember to water everything.